THRU, MAY 1st, 2003 MAY DAY

 I got paid today and so I went shoping of course....LOL. I went to Lane Bryants and bought 4 of my multi-media shirts I have been lusting after, I have two from last year, tank tops and love them.

This time I purchased 3 short cap sleeves and scoop neck T's and one really thin tank with the gather at the base of the neck to emphasize the cleavage. The Ts are all differnt Ad tops with two of them turn of the century French ads with those great Gibson girls on them and the other is this funky 50s florida one with the pics all mixed up and layered.

The tank is very wild, and they still have about 4 or 5 shirts I want but I got $50 in LB bucks I can spend the first of next month so if I spend $50 I save $25 and if I spend $100 I save $50 which is perfect cause by then I will probably have some money again and maybe a few of the items I want will be on clearence. I don't know what is up with the Lane Byrant stores but they clothes they had on clearence are some of the most butt ugly things I have ever seen and I like odd clothes. Now personally I like kind of unusual hippiesh 60s style cloths, actually I like a little of something from most times but they seem to have taken they WORST from the sixeties and dumped it on the clearence racks at LB this month.

On the front, Rosie the Riveter rolls up her sleeves and keeps spirits high with an emphatic "We Can Do It." On the back, another patriotic woman helps out in a munitions factory, and the sides feature women of different countries all doing their part.

I also bought my Krishna lunch box and my Rosie the Riveter one but now I am lusting after at least half a dozen more boxes....SIGH.

The Krishna Lunchbox features the mischievous young Krishna, the eighth incarnation of the Hindu deity Vishnu. Stories of Krishna's youth emphasize his playful side; as a child he was known for stealing butter from milkmaids, and as a young man he charmed women with his flute. The front shows Krishna playing the flute, and the back features Vishnu's consort Lakshmi and the elephant god, Ganesh.

I also went dollar store shopping and lucked out on these amazing rings that are so fun and funky they are great big collections of little rhinestones... the fun thing about them is no one could ever think you are serious about them, they are so obviously for play. I also got a whole plie of three string beaded bracelets with iradecent beads in a variety of differnt colors to go with differnt colors, also wonderfully kitschy and some fun rhinestone hair clips.

The trick to kitschy is to walk the border of tacky with your tongue frimly in cheeck and laugh the entire way and have a really good idea just how far you can go. There is defiately a line there and I try not to cross it.

 THRU, APRIL 24, 2003

I joined a BBW Goth Swap list where we give each other things just for the fun of it, we plan out how much we are going to spend on each swap and how many items there can be and what kind (like items of a certain color or theme, or they may be socks or hair stuff or even for some clothing or what ever) and then who ever plans to be in each swap that is announced by the list leader puts their names in the databank and she choose a dead line and then when it comes she matches people up and you say a week or maybe two to go shopping and find and ship the item and then we all share on the list what we got so of course the idea is to out do each other but stay in the budget. We also have a file called a wish list where we list the kind of things we like and we can grant each others wishes if we want, the idea being if we maybe someone will grant our wishes. It may be some tiny little thing like a toy someone collects or a hair thing they like. People also do 'Personal Swaps' where they may have something the other person wants and then they can look on that persons wish list and see what kind of things they are interested in. And of course when it comes time to do your regular swaps it is nice to be able to see what people like. Anyway I posted mine and I thought what the hey I would post it here since I thought it was interesting seeing all the other womens lists and it gave a real insite into them and the things they like and collect.

T'Rina's Swap Wish List
Lets see some of the things I really like are ::

I like all kinds of deep rich colors, jewel tones, imagine velvet colors, Black, I also like glitter, glow-in-the-dark and leopard

Funky or cool postcards or cards of interesting art like old comic books, pulp novels and movies
b movies or classics) or just really odd art....
I am planning on decopaging a coffee table and then lacquering it.

hair sticks (like chopsticks for the hair, plain or fancy) I also deorate these

rhinestones... just about anything in rhinestones, earrings, necklaces, bracelets, hair clips, rings,
pins. I love antique ones, even if they are odd looking .............. (I have big fingers and wrists) Did I mention I collect Tiaras?

Gargoyles (anything with them)

candle holders, really cool ones, I really am into votive holders right now, mosaic glass ones and ones made out of bright jewel tone glass. No candles I have a Huge box of them

Stationary supplies like quills and inks

Fat art and statues.... women positive stuff, little drawings and paintings, little ethnic things that are fat stuff like that.

Ethnic stuff...the more interesting the better. Little gods and goddesses, little carved or painted boxes, little sculptures, interesting bottles, religious symbols,

really really good quality bath salts

small interesting toys to play with

Cat toys (no not for me for the brats)

Oh well
use your imagination... surprise me, I am easy to please ... just dont tell anyone I like them to work for it.

That is what the list on the swap group says but I thought I would add a few a few things I like here since I will not be trading them...LOL

CLOTHINGWISE

I love dresses ... All kinds of dresses, all lenghts from just above the knee to the floor (I would wear them higher but with a butt like mine when I sit down in a really really short dress or skirt I am sitting flat on the chair and it is pretty much impossible to find nylons that dont have a darker top so I guess my main wish would be size F nylons that fit a 80 inch hip/belly and 42 inch thighs and are sheer one color to the top))

I would love to have about a dozen new dresses, half of them really great goth dresses with flowing sleeves and different bodices all of them black and the other half different lenghts and materials and colors like maroon and hunter green and deep dark teal and burgandy, maybe another rusty one with embrodery like the one I have but floor length and realy full. I have quite a few velvet dresses already so I only need maybe one or two of those full length.

I wish for some black silk shirts with flowing sleeves and some fitted bodice tops. Peasent tops in a bunch of colors and peach skin big shirts in all kinds of colors.

Tulip flaired skirts in the same peach skin silk like material

SHOES... ooohhhhhh More then anything I would love to have shoes that actually fit, I have odd feet, my feet are only a size 9 but they are WIDE and thick they were thick when I was 10 years old and was not heavy it has nothing to do with weight really though I am sure it makes it worse, I just have big wide bones in my feet.

If I was ever rich I would have shoes made for me so I did not have to wear 10 and 11 wide width shoes, this means I can not wear more then a 2 inch heel since I slide around I can not wear any heel with a point.

SO I would wish for about 4 pairs of custom made boots, a pair of 20 eye docs made to fit my calves, a pair of high gloss black boots that go to about an inch below my knee, a pair of soft kid leather squish down boots in tan and a pair of really strong black snow boots.

I would also wish for a never ending supply of basic pumps with one and two inch heels, and some really nice sandles that I dont have to worry will break if I wear them an hour

LOL OK while I am getting fancy I am also wishing for a better apartment, a better car, a maid and to meet Mr right.

OH WELL

Je ne tiendrai pas mon souffle

TUE, APRIL 22, 2003 Happy Earth Day

I have gotten a lot of letters lately from young ladies praising my site and asking me for advice and I sent them letters and told them I would be posting the responses here as well so here goes.

Dear N

The first step to accepting yourself is realizing that it takes more energy to be unhappy, that it hurts more to hate yourself then to work to accept yourself.

You dont have to love yourself right away, I didn't. First just accept that you have the right to be happy with who you are regaurdless of your size, just because you are a person.

Then pick all of the things about you that ARE good, every single little thing no matter how basic they are even if it is "I have nice handwriting" or "I am nice to my grandmother" make a real list and get silly if you have to add stuff like "I am polite to cashiers and waitresses" "I tip well" "I have good color sence" "I have a good sence of humor" "I am a funky wonderful goth goddess" every little thing you can think of.

Now compare it to being fat.

I am sorry but being fat does NOT compare to those other things, you are so much more then "fat".

You have seen my pictures now look at as many positive BBW sites as you can find, see all the women showing how proud they are of themselves, this does two very important things. One it helps you see that you can be fat and proud and two it "immunes" you to the idea of fat, if you see enough of it it does not seem so bad on yourself (sounds funny I know but it does work)

Another way to do this is to take a picture of yourself in a full lenght mirror, (If you dont have one you can go in a dressing room at a store and take one.)

Do this in your bra and panties, and realize that most times when your film is developed no one looks at it and no one cares. The point of doing this is to become comfortable with your body, this is probably the single most important thing I did that helped me.

When you get the pics backs (get about 4 of them at least) put one in your wallet or purse, put one where only you can find it near your computer, put one by your bed and save one. Now as many times a day as you can, pull it out and look at it, do not critisize it. Just look. Just see a body. I find this is much better then looking in the mirror, you are so much more likely to insult yourself in the mirror but the picture is more static and less likely to be upsetting. Over time you become immune to the image of your body and you will become much more comfortable with it.

Hope this helps some T'Rina

 This is the answer I sent a young lady who asked me about taking my gothic pictures. I have actually been taking gothic pictures for about eight years now for other people and four for myself.

Dear LJ

I have two sets of Goth pics on line right now. The older set of pics was done in a cemetery in Madison Wisconsin and they were taken by some people I knew there. They were taken with a regular 35 meter camera and scanned, part of the reason they look so good is they were developed onto Matte paper. This make a HUGE difference for framing and scanning them.

The second set was taken in a cemetery in Bloomington Illinois and it was done by my ex boyfriend who is an artist and we used a digital camera which is probably the way to go if you are not as experienced.... simply take TONS of pics, (I am now at a point where I can use about 98% of my pics but it took time to know which poses work best for me)

Study other people's poses... see what you like and what you think looks good for them and then imitate them and have your photographer take the same pose from a bunch of different angles...such as from the front with him or her standing, then kneeling then to the left of you then to the right of you and then even more to the right of you and then closer and farther away. Alter your pose a bit... looking up a bit, looking down and then into the distance. Try to find a person who will be honest with you about your poses and about how you look in them, someone who answers everything "uh huh" is no help.

Bring a few props, for goth pics roses, scarves, roseries, things like this that you can drape from your hands, items that you can be looking at or that you can hold to your breasts work.

Move from place to place... take pictures at different sites. If you are doing a grave yard don't just do head stones... look for buildings, not just mausoleums, trees, rose bushes, monuments... one of the best pics I took of a friend at a local Idaho cemetery was at 9 am on a Sept morning and we found a HUGE patch of crown mushrooms that must have been 3 batches each a foot or so long (these are the kind that grow all together in clumps) and I had her sit with her hand just barely above them so it looked like she was touching them. You could not see a single grave stone but it was a killer picture.

A lot of the work will come in your photo program, I prefer Photoshop but if you don't have it alright but my answers are for that program.

When you have downloaded or scanned your pics if you want black and white you first have to do any corrections on the color picture you would do if you were going to show it in color... adjust the brightness, the AUTO TONE etc... Now go to IMAGE and make a DUPLICATE of your picture and save the first one.

Using the duplicate image and go to IMAGE then select MODE and then GRAYSCALE... this will make your picture a basic black and white.

BUT that is not the end because it will look very faded and blah. You need to go to IMAGE and ADJUST and play around with the BRIGHTNESS and CONTRAST, here is where you will get more depth and contrast.

Occasionally I decide I want a picture to look like a old sepia print with tones of brown or even with odd tones like purple or red. To do this all you need to do is go to IMAGE and MODE and select DUOTONE now choose two shades of the same color, one very dark and one very light. This will give you a picture that is tinted how you want.

You can also play with the FILTERS and get efects like FILM GRAIN to make the picture seem very old ((The top one on the left side has that effect)) You can also cause a glow effect ((like the bottom pic))

Anytime it is not right just got to EDIT and UNDO.

The advantage of having made a dupilcate is if you really mess up everything you now have an original that is at least at the starting point of a good color picture

I hope this helps. T'Rina

FRI, APRIL 19, 2003

As I have mentioned before I live about 5 blocks from the stadium of Boise State University so you can guess on all sides of me are university students so the average age of my neighbors is about 20, not that this stops them from getting drunk all the time and having loud parties. I use to throw the most mind bending parties, ones that went on till the next day and I would have people sleeping on my floor, my bed and my couch but I always kept a reign on how loud they were as far as my neighbors were concerned and I tell you my neighbours are shit for that. Their friends are out there screaming and driving like nuts.

I have to wonder at what point do you grow up? At what point do you look at a bunch of people having a party like that and not think wow I wish I was there and instead think Man I wish those asses would be quite? A day or so ago I saw a bunch of very very young teens probably 13 or 14 behind the store across from my house, one of them must of gotten a pack of cigarettes cause they were all handing them out and smoking and thinking they were so hot. I thought as I drove by "I wish i had a cell phone I bet a nice call to the cops and a good ticket each would slow down that nasty habit" (that is what stopped my brother smoking) when did I become a grown up like that? I smoked for a little while when I was very young, ok for about one pack of cigarettes and then realized they were gross and yeah I think that kids smoking should have their asses whooped so to speak but when did I get that grown up attitude of thinking about turning them in?

Man growing up sucks

ANYWAY

I have been working on my site again, I don't know how long this motivation will last so I am taking advantage of it while I can, I have done a new gallery of pics of me playing in to pool at Givens Hots Springs here in Idaho Here is a sample pic that is not in my gallery or in my Yahoo Group

I have also started a new series of BBW Erotica.

I decided to create a "Journal" of a character name Jenna who is a 27 BBW who is well a bit on the wild side and it is her telling of some of her sexual exploits. I have taken them from some of my fantasies, the stories and fantasies other people have told me and yes from some of my own experiences (of course when you write about them you can make them come out any way you want) and NO I am not going to tell you which ones are which. The first story is called "Speed Limit"

Keep an eye out for more of Jenna's stories. Also if you have any ideas for Jenna's adventures tell me in the comments

Please COMMENT

TUE, APRIL 15, 2003 

TAX DAY

Remind me to NEVER try to drop off packages on April 15th again, I mean damn I am a slacker and all but you think people would just save themslef the bother even if they owe and mail those damn taxes sooner. Hell my post office had people DOING their taxes there....SIGH... Thank heavens for electronic filing.

YES IT IS A RANT... SO SUE ME

I am the only woman who gets unsolisticed (they send the first message) e-mails and PMs from guys who feel the need to tell you what you do to their "manhoods" or telling you what they want to do to you???
Am I the only one who does not want a guy I have never talked to before to tell me in the first communication "You made me cum" ... "You make my manhood tingle" ... "I got all hard and had to play with myself while on your site"? .... Those are all real quotes and I will spare you the DOZENS of things men have said they want to do in their e-mails not to mention in PMs sent blind to my yahoo account.

The worst of course are the ones who send e-mails like this THEN say hey I want to get to know you, send me a long e-mail about you and then get upset if you dont.

If they enjoy the site great, I KNOW guys do I am not stupid, I know if a woman puts up pics of herself scantily clad men will get aroused. BUT do they HAVE to tell you about it before they get to know you.

Ok guys here is some advice.
I and all these women who post pics on line are STRANGERS to you

No matter how many pics of us you see, no matter if you have our e-mail addresses, our various instant messangers, no matter if you are members of our clubs or have seen us talking in chat BUT have not had a nice long chat with us yourself, no matter even how often on the different BBWs board you have read our posts .... WE ARE STRANGERS.
You do not tell a stranger on the street "Hey baby I just came in my pants looking at you" ((that is if you dont expect to be kneed))
Pretend you are meeting us at a dinner party held by your family or your Boss.... talk to us that way... tell us about you, tell us we are attractive even but do not go into a list of the sexual fantasies you have of us..... do you think we are going to go ...."OHHHH yippie I am being treated like a ho I can not wait to comunticate with this guy"???

I dont care what you think a woman who poses deserves to be treated like... if you think it is less then the same respect of any other woman you are wrong, BUT if you want to get know us you are going about it wrong if you do treat us this way.

Guys if you want to know how to interest a lady in an e-mail here is what most women agree works.

A nice mediun length letter, not just a few sentences "Hi my name is so and so I am such an age e-mail me please" why woudl I want to e-mail you you give me nothing to talk about. But by the same token do not make your note too long so that it goes on and on, do not tell us your life story all at once.

Tell us who you are, your age, your location, your marital status (BE HONEST) tell us that you like our site or the pic you saw, if we have site tell us something specific you like and I will give you a HUGE hint if you like something along with pics mention it even if it is just the design of the site, then we know you are not seeing us just as a picture. And then tell us some about you, give us some details about what you do, what you like and if you learned anything from our sites or whatever that we might have in common mention it.

THEN most important ask a FEW questions, like one to three but no more... and in the first letter at least do not ask questions about our bodies, our weight gain or sex lives... ask about something you think we have in common, about where we live, suck as "what is it like where you live?"

Also one pet peeve a lot of women have mentioned is guys saying "you probably will not respond to this" that is emotional blackmail and when I see it I want to say "your right I won't" ... the best thing to say is "I hope to hear from you."

OK I have to admit it I have a thing for men in uniform, I perfer civilian uniforms mostly, police, sheriffs, firefighters but hey I am not turning my nose up at the military boys either, as long as they are cute, well built and not skinny boys I am happy to admire them.

here is this coffee shop I go to late at night to read and drink decafe and a lot of Boise Boys in Blue hang out there on their lunch break, very distracting.

I don't know what it either since in general I perfer men who are a little bit heavy to big but I just like a guy in uniform, and yes I admit I have the usual range of uniform fantasies.... LOL T

Keep an eye out and they may show up in my erotic fiction.

Please COMMENT

 TUE, APRIL 09, 2003

Yes I admit it... I am a slacker... AND my life is BORING

This is why I have been writing so little lately.....SIGH, other then going out to eat cheap way more then I should and getting a hair cut... strait across the back, still pretty long and bangs at eyebrow level... Yes I know I need to get a photo.

We went to the public library book sale and got LOTS and LOTS of books, between us my grandmother and I spent $31 and walked out with 3 1/2 bags of mostly paperbacks, yeah I hate to admit it, romances and mysteries, brain candy by the bag full. I love the book sale you pay $9 for a grocery bag and can fill it as full as you want so it is a game to see how much you can get.

That is also a reason I have not been writing I have been trying to finish up my library books before I even bring the others in the house, my luck I would loose the ones that have to go back in with the others

I need to get working on my own writing but it is sooooo much easier on nice spring days to open all the windows and just relax with a book.

If you want to ask me any questions for me to write about here just tell me in my comments section

Please COMMENT

WED, APRIL 1, 2003 

Well I could pull an Aprils Fool stunt and tell you something totally unlikely like I am getting married but in general I don't like April Fools day.

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Well my life is pretty boring, my sleep schedule is shot to hell in a handbag. I was up at 3 am so i waited till 5:20 to go grocery shopping and then went to Chef's Hut to have my favorite breakfast there... Three HUGE slices of perfect French toast and a BIG slice of ham... $5.10 though the French toast usually fills me all the way up.

I came home and read after going to Wal-mart and buying a contour pillow since my neck and shoulders are killing me (on of the reasons my sleep is sooooo messed up). My mom came over around 11am to see if she is still eligible for Financial aid to take summer classes, I hope it works out for her.

Finally around 3 I got some sleep till 8pm when I got up and got ready to go watch CHICAGO at the huge cineplex that has really nice seating where the arms go up. First I went to Golden Corral (can you tell it is the first of the month???) and had a steak and a bunch of baby carrots and some cabbage and a little bit of bourbon chicken on rice and then a small slice of red velvet cake.

I admit it I would be very depressing for a feeder to take to a buffet since I don't eat much at them.

CHICAGO was amazing and I am so tempted to get a Louise Brook page like Zeta-Jones had but I can not make myself give up in my longer hair. I am thinking of having 2 inches cut off and having it cut flat on the bottom and getting bangs.

OH well I will go tomorrow and get it cut so we will see what I do.

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The questions below are the Bernard Pivot questionnaire ... you may have heard of these on "Inside the Actors Studio" on BRAVO

1. What is your favorite word? Sugar... not as a food but as something to call people

2. What is your least favorite word? obese... it sounds so clinical, add morbid in front of it and it is just annoying, I don't mind FAT, or Overweight (though that is a dumb one) BIG or LARGE or ZAFTIG... obese just sounds like there in not a person involved but a corps

3. What turns you on? All Kinds of things, I love it when a man knows how to go down and can follow instructions with out freaking out and getting an ego, I have different tastes then a lot of women for what I like and I don't always like the same thing all the time so I really like a person to respond to my needs that way. Physically I adore men with some meat on them, model thin men no matter how perfect they are do nothing for me.

4. What turns you off? I hate to admit this cause I like people as people but I do not think I could be turned on by a skinny man at all anymore.

5. What sound do you love? Rain and thunder, one of the things I loved about living in the Midwest for a while was the storms which we don't get here often.

6. What sound do you hate? Whiney pissy voices bitching about things, my own voice is medium deep and low in tone but still feminine and I sometimes hear people on TV or in stores with voices that send me through the roof

7. What is your favorite curse word? Sugar-tit ...LOL something my grandmother use to say and still does sometimes. I am not claiming I don't cuss that is just my favorite one.

8. What profession, other than yours, would you like to attempt? I would love to be a full time artist and make a good living at it. Barring that a kept woman.

9. What profession would you not like to participate in? Anything involving sweat or republicans.

10. If Heaven exists, what would you like God to say, when you arrive at the pearly gates? ""Oh I bet you are surprised huuuuh chicky""

 MON, MARCH 31th 2003

Recently a site called Rapmusic.com had 3 pics of my friend Selesune posted there and she was slammed repeatedly by people. I of course could not let this go and had to post my opinions about their behavior.

Below are my posts.

MY POST JOHNNY HERERA
Do we think we are sexy... I know I am, because I am a loving sensual human being, my fan club on yahoo is over 2000 people (look up msxxl there if you want to see if I tell the truth)

OH but the question is DO YOU WE THINK WE ARE SEXY? Probably not and if not why do you care if we do?
Do you really think sizeism (the discrimnation of people due to their size) is that different from Racism? We are all judged by our appearence and before you say that people of color have no choice and fat people do let me remind you there are bleaching treatments out there... and not all big people CAN loose the weight.... but is it right to have to suffer, to change who you are and deny yourself just to be treated like a human being?
You do not have to find me or women like myself and Selesune attractive, but think about this how would you react if you took out the words FAT PEOPLE and put in BLACK PEOPLE into your question.... or LATINOS or ASIANS.... you would I hope not approve.

I dont think I am going to change your oppinions as I said if you do not find large people attractive chance are you never will but I hope you will see as people with feelings and desires and rights, but that is choice, your choice to look beyond the body to the person inside.

You say pain is temporary and pride is forever (this persons signature).... where does bigotry fall in the sceme of things?
If you doubt you are a bigot then concider this... bigotry is judging a person for how they look or there social standing... as well as there race.
You have chosen to be bigoted against a person just for how they look.... is that really so far from being bigoted against them for their race (how they look)?

MY POST TO Ndividual:
Actually some people can not change their weight, believe it or not there are genetic and medical reasons people can be big... OHH and for not changing your color... seems to me Michael Jackson is looking awful Caucasion these days.
OHHH BUT that costs a lots and hurts.... so can loosing a lot of weight if your body is not designed to do so.

But in the long run all that matters is how we respect people, our color and size do not stand up to how we treat other people or how we allow ourselves to think of them as less then worthy of respect. It is sad but some people always need to put someone else in a bad light to make themselves feel better, this is usually due to low self esteem... something that at no doubt twice your size *I* do not suffer from any longer since I accept that I am who I am, I am beautiful as a person and in the minds of quite a shocking amount of people physically desirable.
No I dont expect you like me, you would most likely never be willing to get to know someone like me because you would prejudge my body and be unwilling to see my personality or with many other people as well because they do not fit your narrow view of acceptable.
That is your loss not mine or theirs.

Size or color does not make you a better person, rising above the abuse and discrimination you face for those thngs and/or choosing not to judge others or hate without reason.... THAT does make you a better person
No I wont change what you think about me and other large people... you and only you can open your mind for that and you dont seem to want to.
But then coming here did get over 800 people to come to my site (selesune had more then that and the average visit from people from this site was over 20 mins longs) and I only posted the url in my profile, yeah some of them came to laugh but some of them I am sure got something from it... dont be surprised how many people out there DO NOT judge a person only by their apperance or how many do like big people...
Man that must drive someone nuts who starved and suffered to get to a size they deem makes them an acceptable human being only to find out that there are people who are BIG who are also happy, loved and adored not to mention lusted after.

DO YOU WANT TO KNOW WHAT IS FUNNY???
Here he is appologizing that she is on the chubby side and HE DOES NOT KNOW HER... he stoled her pics off the net.
I know her actually, I know he does not know her.
And here you all are with your prejudgist attitudes slamming a person you dont know.... how different is it to dislike someone on sight for their size then for their skin color.... any way you cut it baby it is bigotry plain and simple.

Do you assume her size makes her less human? Less worthy of respect? What if we changed that question to "Do you assume her color makes her less human?"
DC is a wonderful young woman, sweet and loving, a student with many wonderful things ahead of her and unlike so many of you she is not a bigot, she does not judge people on their looks (wether it be size or color or age)
You dont know her anymore then Twist does and yet you slam her over and over.... God that is soooooo sad.

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MY SIGNATURE

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Our bodies are vehicles, they come in all different sizes and shapes and colors, but all that really matters is the person in side. We are our minds and if you could see them you would see they all look alike, no real difference in color or size. We are our souls, look deep and see if you have honored your soul with your actions to others and your judgments.

SAT, MARCH 29th 2003

SLACKER GIRL

Well I have definately blown off doing my blog for a while now, first off I wanted to do the one for Travis visit here but it had so many pics and I had to dig them out of about 400 plus pics and I kept saying to myself "As soon as I am done with that I will blog" and I have been on a reding binge as well as a crafts project binge.

So as much as I love to blog it is sooooo easy to blow it off but I am determined to keep doing it even if there are lapses in my blog

I have been working on decorating my bedroom in the maroon harem chic-campy look I just stamp painted my curtains and made a light switch cover to match.

Making the stamped curtains is sooooo Easy I bought two maroon twin flat sheets from Wal-mart for under $3 a piece, My windows in the bedroom are tall and thin, 35 inches by 60 inches so the twin sheets were perfect being 70 inches across. I opened the casings at the top and then split the sheets in half down the length and cut them to 61 inches (an inch for a hem... you can use more if you want to double fold it) Since the side of the curtain/sheet has a double fold hem I did the same on the inside where I had split it, this left me with about 67 inche wide curtains but that is plenty for a 35 inch wide window (that includes the frame) Once they were hemmed I got a Stamp from Wal-mart of a sun burst for $.99 (craft stores foam stamps like these from very small for $.35 to large matching sets for $10) I already had the paint I wanted to use, a good basic tole paint is perfect though you may have to mix your colors as I did to get the perfect tone. You can buy tole paint in about any color and even metalics. I mixed up a few shades of red, some purple and then metalic copper and dark gold to get the color I wanted. I always keep the old bottles when I finish a color off so I was able to put my mix in a couple of bottles... it is alwasy better to have way more mix in a color then you need then to have too little since it is VERY difficult to match a color again perfectly. 2oz bottles of tole paint range in price from $.69 to $1.50 or so and this will let you have some fun at a decent price. Since curtains are seldom washed like clothes you will not have to use a setting agent like Shiva on the paint I do not dip the stamps like a normal ink pad stamp... You could with a very simple design or a large one but when it has all the little ins and outs of the stamp i used it is worth using a mid size brush and brushing the paint on each time. I begin by laying the curtain on my folding table I use for just these kinds of crafts and then working from the bottom I put the stamp on at random. Tole Paint dries quickly so you may have to clean off your stamp once ina while in running water but the advantage is the curtains will dry fast also. I had two panels of them done in an evening and hung the next morning, I love the way the light goes through them     Painting the Lightswitch plate This is also a fun and easy project you can do cheaply. The switch plate cost me like $.30 and I simply covered it with the same Tole paint I used on the stamps, a coppery maroon then I got a bottle of Metalic Inca Gold ( a light gold) and began to work my shape. Since the paint dries quickly I was able to build up layers of the inca gold to give the plate texture, using a Tiny pointed brush I worked up the outline of the flare over and over and then when it was dry I covered it with a coating of simple clear fingernail polish which works amazingly well. I later decided to have even more fun with the switch plate and bought a $.89 bottle of glow in the dark putty paint and began to work the edges of the flare and build up a serious textured effect. I am keeping the old bland switch plate so that when I move I will take my painted one with me and put back the orriginal.