Standing on the Borderline ~ T'Rina / MsXXL

Current mood: busy

Sorry I have been having problems with my FTP so I couldn't load pics

These first ones were from Mulligans on Friday the 30th.
So sweet

She wants a kiss or a cig, he just wants me to stop taking pics

Dave in Jenna's cowboy hat

Marissa and Danielle taking their pic with D's camera phone


These are from INDUSTRIA on June 2nd for the reopening.

Debbie and Erin

Tom and Brandy (she is so close to her due date and wore high heels, now that is hard core)

Brandy and Cheryl

Ty, Micheal, Kiki and Dave

a quite chat

Shakespearian moment

Tim and Sterling

Gavin and a pretty girl whoes name I forgot

Matt

Brandy and Kiki

Tim and his fangs

Jake

Afton and Sterling

Current mood: full

Elton and Cheryl had a sale at their SOMETHING WICKED shop today and even though I am suppose to be a good girl and not spend anymore money I couldnt resist getting a Japanese Dueling Sword with built in dagger and a couple of boxes of henna powder to do Mendhi with. It has been a long time since I have done Mendhi on myself but I just couldnt resist, I did my hair dark flame red now I have Mendhi designs on my hands and forearms. Now I just need to get my nose pierced again.
My mom and Stepdad decided to have a BBQ for the forth of July and I took Jeff, Marissa, Danielle and Nadia with me. Nadia liked my moms yard and her dogs unfortunately we had a HUGE thunderstorm come through with amazing lighting and thunder and tons of rain right as my step dad was getting the food on the grill so we all ended up inside watching cartoons and eating in the front room. Poor Nadia just couldnt wait to set off fireworks and when she found out my mom had a few at the house she wanted to set them off even though it was raining, lets just say they dont do so well in a downpour.
Basically I have spent most of the day watching the travel channel Made in America and Taste of America, Yes I am a party animal.

Current mood: chipper 1. YOUR ROCK STAR NAME: (current pet and current street name)
Princess Nepo Allumbaugh (good one)

2. YOUR MOVIE STAR NAME: (grandfather/grandmother on your mom's side, your favorite candy)
Jane Godiva (like that)

3. YOUR "FLY GIRL/GUY" NAME: (first initial of first name, first two or three letters of your middle name)
T-Chri (ick, worse it could be T-Christ)

4. YOUR DETECTIVE NAME: ( favorite color, favorite animal)
Burgundy Cat (sounds more like a hero)

5. YOUR SOAP OPERA NAME: (middle name, city where you were born)
Christine Boise (I really dont like my middle name)

6. YOUR STAR WARS NAME: (first 3 letters of your last name, last 3 letters of mother's maiden name,)
Healer (no kidding)

7. JEDI NAME: (middle name spelled backwards, your mom's maiden name spelled backwards)
Enitsihc Rellim (oh yeah that is easy for you to say)

8. CELEBRITY NAME: (middle name, street you grew up on)
Christine Randall (what a boring middle name, I always wanted Alexandria instead)

9. SUPERHERO NAME: ("The", your favorite color, favorite drink)
The Burgundy Coke and Malibu (not so much)
How about:
The Burgundy Cuba Libre (sounds like a gay Fidel Castro)
I guess I could stretch it and say:
The Burgundy Barracuda (Ingredients: Southern Comfort, Triple sec, Vodka ) OK that works

Current mood: sore

The worst thing about having a little bit extra money to spend is it is way too easy to spend way too much. I decided to go out Saturday night and instead of buying drinks I decided to buy a bottle of rum and take some with me, I have been wanting a steel flask that holds at least 6 oz and no more then 10 so I was thrilled to see that the liquor store had 8oz Coleman steel flasks for $10, so of course instead of buying a pint I bought a fifth and spent way too much.
I called up Danielle and she said that Marissa, Jeff and her were at the Chinese Buffet not too far from my house and so I went to join them, I got there about the time they were finishing and if I had been smart I would have just ordered a pop buy I got the buffet and ended up paying $10 to eat one saucer of chicken stuff and a spring roll. I did add some of my rum to the pop I was drinking, what a lush.
We went over to Jeffs house and watched THREESOME while they drank wine and I had more rum before heading over to MULLIGANS after 10. We lucked out since they were having the bike races all weekend they had signs telling people they could not park until 10 PM so no one was parked nearby and I got a great spot, not to mention it was slow since so many people went out of town for the holiday.
We found a good table and sat there drinking, I doctored the coke I bought with the last of my rum (I have a pretty high tolerance and a slow metabolism so by the time I feel anything from drinking I have usually drunken too much) I never really felt drunk that entire night though you wouldnt know it to watch me fall on my ass.
Yes I fell off a bar stool.
I was talking to Jeff on one side of me and holding a mirror in one hand and my lip gloss in another, I had one foot on the floor and one on the rail of the bar stool and I turned to look at Jeff and the next thing I know I was on my ass with my head missing the ATM machine by about an inch. It felt like slow motion in a way, one minute I am standing up and the next I am hitting the ground in slowmo.
I felt ok just a bit sore at the time so we kept hanging out at the bar until closing.
Only problem was I had a big coffee before going to the bar and then way too many colas and by the time I got home my tush felt as if I had gotten all my birthday spankings for the next ten years at once and my whole body was stiff as a board.
And I had to pick Jeff up and take him to work at 8:30 AM.
I made it to get him a little late but talk about sore and since I had been drinking I could not take a muscle relaxer or anything like that.
Right now I am just sitting here wishing my office chair was more padded and listening to the thunder storm pass through town while *A* sleeps in my bedroom. I will be going to Industria tonight and hopefully I wont have any barstool accidents.

Currently watching: Threesome Release date: By 01 May, 2001

Current mood: hyper

Thursday is the Goth Meetup at Flying M, I almost did not go last night because the van was on E. I had called to ask Jeff if I needed to babysit Friday and he said no and was I going downtown, I told him why I wasnt and he said he could give me a little money. I told him all I needed was $3 for a tank of gas and $1 for something at Flying M, since that would be the only place I would go so I went to pick him up and made him be the one to pay for one gallon of gas.
The regular group was there for a while and then some of the younger Goths showed up but mostly hung around outside, hopefully they will start coming and joining the group more but it is still cool to see them come out.
I hate the day before payday, I am always so dead broke and since I dont have checks I cant kite one and hope it doesnt go through, I know there will be money in the account first thing in the morning but that just makes me want to go someplace at 2 am when it goes in the bank and around here that means loosing your parking space or one anywhere near the building. I hate that I have to make my decisions about when to go somewhere by the fact that parking is so bad, that there are days when walking a block is so painful just the idea makes me want to cry. Anyway I cant figure out what exactly I would do with money at 2am except go eat and I dont need to be doing that.

Friday, I actually got a halfway early start today, putting $47 in gas in my tank and buying some material for a blanket I am making for Brandys baby, I found pirate flannel material, now all I need is some batting and I think I will use simple fleece for that, since it is going to be a summer blanket and I can buy it at the dollar store.
I stopped by Something Wicked and sold Elton 4 of the boxes I made and bought a sword that has skulls all over the handle and shaft, I need to make a few more boxes with dragons on them for the shop, hopefully they will sell. Another thing I would like to try is to find my wood burner again and urn in some designs but like many of my possessions it is packed somewhere, at least I think it is, when I moved I got rid of a lot of stuff and it would be like me to have given it away.
I stopped for lunch at Chapalas #9 on Vista, one thing they have is grilled chimichangas which are pretty healthy since they are not fired. I went down to the Co-op and bought a 5 pack of really nice different colored chopstick pairs and a dragon sarong I intend to make into a shirt even if it means the dragons head will be upside downLOL
I realized at the Co-op I had lost my ATM card which is weird cause I was just thinking I would have to order a new one after the 4th since mine was getting awfully worn out, thankfully I had cash with me.
I pulled my hair up the usual way and held it with a pair of light goldish green chopsticks and went to the Edge to pick up a bottle of Punky Color in FLAME. As I was walking out I hear this woman and her teenage daughter saying, I hate that style. Those sticks are so ugly and tacky.
I thought they cant be talking about me because no one would be so rude as to say something like that 3 feet away from a person would they?
By the time they had started to walk off the other way I realized they were talking about me and I wish I had said HI there! You know talking about people behind their backs is TACKY. But like I said I was so honestly shocked that anyone could be so rude I was speechless, I would never think of saying something like that while standing right by a person. I might say something later, or even as we got out of hearing distance, I mean I am human, who isnt but I would never intentionally hurt someones feelings like that.
I came home and took a nap after stopping by my bank and ordering a new ATM card and just as I woke up and thought how much I would like to go and get a Margarita my oldest friend in the world called and asked if I wanted to get together since we had not seen each other in about a year. I have known Sue since I started university when I was 18 so we have known each other just short of 20 years, for a long time she dated my brother and we sort of lost touch. We use to be the biggest party hounds around but both of us have mellowed out the drinking and Sue is one of those people who is really shy when she is sober. Sadly we dont have a lot in common, Sue is a pre-school teacher and has the same job for 13 years, her parents are 40 years older then her and live out of town and she has a hard time meeting new people. I am 7 years younger then her but I act about 20 years younger a lot of the time, like dying my hair flame red and hanging out with people younger then me, my folks are young and I am close to them and I am so out going it puts some people off. So basically we get together once or twice a year, have a couple margaritas, visit and talk about what we have been doing lately.
I came home and dyed my hair then went to see if they had done anything interesting to the Balcony since a few of my friends mentioned they were going to be there. Other then taking some carpet off of a wall and supposedly fixing the sound system it doesnt seem like they did much that would take a week. And no there is not a fountain, though that might have been cool. I guess they just gave the place a good cleaning, all that smoke buildup and all. It is just as well I dont think it is smart to mess too much with something that works and that people are comfortable with.
I headed home around 10 since I didnt like the music they were playing and I didnt want to pay for my parking after the free first hour in the garage. I cant wait to see what Industria is going to be like on Sunday.
I stopped by Wal-Mart on the way home and bought up 9 yards of light weight black material and some stuff for crafts as well as two books, I have to watch it because it is too easy to spend too much money when you think you have a little extra.

Currently reading: Hurricane Hannah (Hqn Romance) By Sue Civil-Brown Release date: By 01 June, 2006

Current mood: tired

*A* came by this morning for a few hours to visit and then I had him go because I was babysitting Nadia again, I am so out of gas that I had to get Marissa to bring Nadia over here. We watched TV for a while and Na was Starving and dying of hunger which seems to be the natural condition of a 7 year old as far as I can figure.
The big problem is she is always hungry but she never wants to eat anything good for her, I worry about her since she would willingly eat sweets all day long and still tell you how hungry she is. She only ever takes a half a dozen bites of anything we fix her and then complains 15 minutes later to being hungry but if you offer her the same food she wont touch it. This is hard for me since I dont stock up on snack food or stuff kids like much. I have pretty much been living off of a few chicken tenderloin strips and big handfuls of veggies cooked together in the toaster oven.
I borrowed a little bit of money and we went and picked up Danielle and went to Mikes Restaurant, the only thing Nadia, who had been telling me for over an hour how she was starving to death, would eat was a hotdog, no bun, a small handful of chips and some crackers and 5 minutes after I took Danielle home Nadia was telling me how hungry she was again. It is kind of frustrating when I am trying to not think of food much and she mentions it NONSTOP.
I finally gave in and told her we would hit her dad up for something to eat since it was near time for him to get off of work so we headed over there just as he was getting off work. We headed over to their house and Na and I watched MULAN (my favorite animated Disney movie) and she had Spaghetti and garlic bread while Jeff and I had some sauce to dip the bread in and a piece of grilled salmon. I taught Nadia how to make scullpy beads with the set her mom gave her for her b-day and we made a ton of them and you should have seen me trying to put holes in them using a lollipop stick (they dont exactly sharpen), I cooked them before going and left at Nadias bedtime since she seems to have a harder time sleeping when people are visiting and I am sleepy myself.
I get paid on Friday and I cant wait to fill my tank and put extra money on my 7-11 card so I can actually use my AC unit when it is nearly 100* outside like today.
God I hate being poor.

Currently watching: Mulan (Disney Gold Classic Collection) Release date: By 09 November, 1999

Current mood: hot

Monday night we finally got back to playing Serenity RPG at Jeffs house after I went out to happy hour with mom at Cafe Ole. It is always nice to spend time with my mom and of course anyone who reads my blog knows I love Happy Hour. Nadia and I watched Hoodwinked before the game, what a funny ass movie.

Tuesday *A* came by at 7 in the morning and I felt bad because I had to send him home when I went to get Nadia at 11 to babysit her since it was just way too hot to spend the entire day in the park again, it got to 100* today.
I stopped by grandmas and got this container of pennies she had so I would have money to do stuff with Na, we went to Albertsons and she helped me use the CoinStar and we ended up with $14. We bought some cookies for the park and went to this little Chinese place and got $5 lunches to go, I had generals chicken and Na had sweet and sour chicken which we ate half of at the playground at Julia Davis and half later at my place. I would have liked to let Nadia play in the park longer then an hour but it was getting to be 2pm and the heat was just horrible. I so bribed the kid to come peacefully with a small shaved ice, I told her she could stand in line for them and buy them since my knee was hurting and standing in line is worse then actually walking. She was so cute she got out a piece of paper and wrote down my flavor (Cream Soda) and the size as if she was taking an order in a cafe.
We had a very mellow afternoon, we just watched TV and as always Nadia just had to take a bath (they dont have a tub and she loves to use my bath oil beads) I finally took her home around 5 after printing off a copy of the Has Christian Anderson version of The Little Mermaid for her which she started to read to me in the car, she is getting really good at sounding out words though she will still make wild guesses that make the story a little odd and it is hard to drive when you want to see what the word is so that you can correct her.
Jeff invited me to dinner (he makes really good spaghetti) and we watched Indian Jones and the Temple of Doom and Nadia and I went through 3 huge garbage bags of all her toys trying to decide which should go to her grandmothers house and which should stay in the big plastic packing box I gave them for a toy box. I know how hard it is for me to sort stuff I would just as soon mess around with so I tried to keep Na on track as much as I could.
We had used the AC unit in my van which makes a god awful screeching noise (the AC belt) so I seldom use it and now I remember the other reason why, I had a quarter of a tank when I left the park downtown by her place (I live not quite 5 miles away) and by the time I drove her home again I had 1/8th of a tank, the AC in my van is a gas hog. I finally gave in and turned the AC on in the house, not bad to make it all the way to the last few days of June before having to use it at all. I just hate knowing it costs so much when I dont really have to use it except in the evening of really hot days. I will spend money on all kinds of silly things but I hate spending it on stuff like that even if it makes me more comfortable. I am such a goose.


HOODWINKED
Nicky Flippers: We don't arrest people for being creepy.
P-Biggie: [into walkie-talkie] Hey, Bruce, you know that guy we have in the tank?
Bruce: [over walkie-talkie] The creepy one?
P-Biggie: Better let him go.

Currently watching: Hoodwinked (Widescreen Edition) Release date: By 02 May, 2006

Current mood: creative

Here are some of the things I have been doing with the wooden boxes I bought.

Wooden Boxes with Escher and Giger art

Nadias Crayon Box

Currently watching: Hidalgo (Widescreen Edition) Release date: By 03 August, 2004

Current mood: creative

I slept in a lot today, I just felt so tired so even after *A* came over I just kept sleeping off and on til 4. I got up so he could get some sleep and sat in the front room painting and decopaging the boxes I got last week. I found a bigger box with a heart handle and made Nadia a Crayon box by painting it rainbow and putting little print outs of fairy pictures I found on line on it. I also made Brandy and Tom one of my wooden boxes with a picture from their wedding on it and took it with me to the bar.
There was no Industria tonight due to the Balcony redecorating the place (man are the rumors flying about what they are doing to the place. The words FOUNTAIN are being tossed around a lot)
Tonight a lot of the Industria regulars decided to meet up at Mulligans on Main St since they are open Sunday nights and have a very ALT. Pub attitude, sadly they have pretty much nothing gothy on the juke box.
We all hung out on the patio (the benches are about 6 inches too high but it is nice to have something sturdy to sit on without having to bring out a chair from inside.) Cheryl bought me a couple of drinks which was sweet of her, she is so nice, I need to make her and Elton one of my boxes with a photo of them on it.
We all had a great time sitting around, taking photos, singing weird songs and goofing off.
Tara and Tyler

Adam and Jake

Hope singing to Bohemian Rhapsody

Jay playing at being Emo

Furrie Porn

Sarah

Currently reading: The Big Bamboo : A Novel By Tim Dorsey Release date: By 28 March, 2006

Current mood: hungry

I am still tired from yesterday, who thought sitting in a car for over 5 hours in 90* weather would wipe you out so much?
I had been up late and woke up not feeling very good when *A* came over after work at 7am then I got a call from Marissa at 8:30 asking if I could babysit. I of course said I would. I went and picked her up at 10 and we went to the Big City Café because I was so desperate for caffeine but since I was pretty broke all I could afford was one huge cookie for Nadia and I and a coffee for me and a hot cocoa for her.
I thought of taking the easy way out and taking her to my house but *A* was still asleep there so I figured it would just as easy to go to the park. Nadia had not had anything other then a bit of cookie (she did not like it much) and cocoa so we went to her dads work and hit him up for some money so I could buy us some Wendys and some sunscreen for her as well as giving her a dollar to spend at the dollar store on those little sponge shapes in capsules that you put in water and watch them expand. I also grabbed some dumb book even though I had a really good one since I did not want to waste the newest Tim Dorsey on reading it in the car at the park.
We went to Veterans Park and spent the next four hours and forty minutes hanging out and expanding little Magic Shapes and melting in the sun, which was still better then when I sat on the park bench and got a splinter in my bum.
Finally at 3:40 of so Nadia was hungry again, she is either in a growing phase or she is a bottomless pit, or both, so we headed over to her dads work for something to drink and a cup of soup while we waited for him to get off work. Since it was payday we stopped by his bank and then the record exchange then back to their house. We hung out until 7:30 and then took Nadia up to see her grandma for the night then Jeff and I went to Hastings and Taco Bell and headed back to their place to watch Matrix Revolutions. They decided to go out to the bar but I was just too tired and dehydrated to put up with the Friday night crowds so I headed home and decided to get some sleep around 11.
*A* scared the hell out of me coming back to my place around 11am after fishing all day, I felt bad because he wanted to visit and goof off and I was so damn tired I could barely stand it. I think we are going out to coffee now, yeah my life is soooooooo exciting.

Currently reading: The Big Bamboo : A Novel By Tim Dorsey Rele

Current mood: sleepy

I called Brandy-Angela and asked if she wanted to go to a late lunch at chefs hut with me so we headed over around 3 and visited for a while. Brandy is only 2 ˝ weeks from her due date, it is going to be odd when her little one is here.
I stopped by Something Wicked and bought a 3 inch knife to keep in the car, there are times when I need to cut things open and I wanted one small enough not to be a concealed weapon. I am hoping to spend about $20 there with the coupon I have for 15% off and get a sword the first of the month since my landlord wrote me a letter saying I have a $117 credit towards my rent so I will be a little ahead this month.
I dont plan to go crazy spending it all on doodads but I figure $20 at Something Wicked and maybe some more material and putting an extra $20 towards gas next month so I dont get to the end and panic. My grandpa is doing quite a bit better so we can move some of his health care stuff out of the house and some of his bedroom furniture back in to his room so I can get back into my grandmas sewing room. I really need some more lightweight clothing for summer, especially in black and dark colors.
I stopped by the dollar store and as I was walking in I was thinking I wish they would ever have those wooden boxes again. and bingo. I bought 12 of them since I can do all kinds of cool crafts with them and I might try selling them at Elton and Cheryls shop and maybe Goddess Fest. I also need to make another Medusa Mirror to take over to there shop, I just have to remember to super glue the whole thing this time.
We had the Thursday night Goth gathering at flying M and a lot of people showed up, I actually got to take quite a few pictures (I will post them tomorrow since I am so tired right now) It went really well and Jeff and Nadia came over, Nadia was really well behaved, she drew Brandy a handful of drawings of demons, spiders, skulls and the like, I dont think Brandy knew what to think about it.
Other then that I have been watching Music Videos and painting the boxes different dark colors, since I was sitting there without anything on I now have managed to get smears of paint all over me, which is why I paint naked because it is easier to get paint off of me then my clothes.
Anyway I am off to bed, poor sleepy painted girl I am.

Currently listening: Eye To The Telescope By KT Tunstall Release date: By 07 February, 2006

Current mood: tired

Man I am tired which would not be such a big deal except I am babysitting Nadia today and I feel bad because I should be taking her to the park instead of sitting her in front of the TV (thank heaven for Cartoon Network and Disney) I will take her to the park next time I babysit, which is usually only for a few hours in the afternoon instead of all day.
Yesterday morning at around 8am my Mom called and asked if I could come and get her at 10 t take her to an appointment since her tire is totally flat and blown and of course I could not get back to sleep so I headed over there with a book and picked her up and we drove to the other side of town and I waited out in the car reading and drinking a lousy 7-11 latte (peach cobbler latte tastes good for about 3 oz then it is just icky) I waited outside because my car is more comfortable then the chairs inside the place and that early in the morning the weather was perfect.
After her appointment we went to GOLDEN CORRAL to eat since you can actually eat really healthy there if you try, I feel bad cause mom paid and the latte had made me so sick to my tummy I only had a piece of meatloaf, a little bourbon chicken, carrots, cabbage and strawberries. That is the only problem with buffets is you feel like you are not getting your money worth if you dont eat more.
We headed over to Home depot so mom could get some bug bombs for my grandmas crawlspace under the house (she has ants and nothing seems to work with them no matter how clean you keep everything, they even eat bar soap) we went to grandmas and mom crawled under the house and set the bombs off and we moved a big chair out of the sewing room so I could check on my store of black material, I need to make some light weight black dresses for summer.
I dropped mom off at her house and headed home and read some more until *A* showed up and we napped for about 30 minutes then decided to go to happy hour at Cafe Ole where we each had a Margarita and some chips and salsa.
We came back to my place and took a nap and so of course I ended up not sleeping until 4am and had to get up at to get Nadia around 9. You know I remember in the old days when I would sleep 4 hours, get up be up all day and sleep another 4 hours only and then party all night. I am sure part of it is my meds but sad to say some of it is the fact that I am getting old..SOB
Getting old SUCKS

Currently watching: Teen Titans - The Complete First Season (DC Comics Kids Collection) Release date: By 07 February, 2006

Current mood: AMUSED

I actually dressed up a bit this time and put on makeup so I could get some pictures taken for once, I dont know why I bother it was so hot in the club I sweated off half my makeup in the first hour.
I was hurting pretty bad so I had taken one of my few Norcos (5mg Vicodin) which honestly helped a ton I know I shouldnt have but I bought myself a Malibu and Coke and that helped with a pain even more and later my new friend Dougie bought me another, but hey two is my limit especially when I 1# have taken a Norco and 2# have to drive.
I saw a few of my friends, including some who hardly ever make it there.
GAVIN, AFTON and STERLING
I was sitting watching *T* play an old friend pool and he told me that he and the lady had decided to play for clothes. I asked him if he wanted me to leave and give him some space and he told me no not to be silly.
It is sad but I realized that as much as I like him and enjoy playing with him I would not have been upset if he had said yes, I figure he would do it for me. I mean I would be bummed a bit if he told me he had a new GF but only cause it would mean we could not play while he was involved and I am sure it might happen soon but I realize I would not be heart broken. I am either always too attached or too detached, I dont seem to have a middle ground.
Dougie and I were talking and watching UNDERWORLD: EVOLUTION on the big screen and listening to the music playing when up walks this guy I had met last year.

Now for you to understand why I was so NOT INTO this guy I have to tell you what happened last year.
I am there at Industria one night and this totally normal looking guy starts telling me how I am the most beautiful woman he has seen in years, how he wants to get to know me. Well yes I was flattered, so I agreed to let him buy me a drink and we talked, after a bit he asked for my phone number and like a dipsshit I gave it to him. As the evening went on he got drunker and drunker, never without a drink, and I would try to go and talk to my friends and he would end up following me and herding me off to talk. At one point the asks Is it wrong you turn me on? I laughed and said no and then he said is it wrong that you are giving me a hard-on right now now and lifts his shirt up so I could see his tent I told him it was not wrong but showing me was uncool.
He tried to get me to go to a bonfire with him out on some farm out in the boondocks, of course I said NO. He left with his friends around 1 and by the time I got home from going to breakfast with my friends at 4 there were at least five messages from him each of them more drunken then the last begging me to go somewhere with him.
I made the mistake of answering the phone the next time he called sober and we talked for a while oh wait *I* talked for a while, he had next to nothing to talk about but would try to keep me on the phone for ever. He kept calling me and each time he would try to turn the call sexual and I would avoid it, finally I told him off and asked him to loose my number.

So there he is totally shit faced and leaning into me and saying I bet you dont remember me, it is ok if you dont (did I mention this guy was real big on guilt tripping?) I said I think I did even though I knew exactly who he was. I tried to let it go at that and hoped he would realize I was not into him but no such luck he just kept on leaning into me and asking me if I would give him my number again.
OK here is a fact I am a wimp, I hate to be rude, it is hard for me.
He kept asking and pestering me and finally I got desperate, now Dougie would never pass as my BF so I told the guy that *T* was my BF and I was just watching him play pool. Finally I had to grab *T* and hug him and whisper in his ear what was happening and thankfully he is quick on the uptake cause he kissed me and cuddled up and said Hi I am TRinas BoyFriend.
You think this would send the guy running, no such luck, he just kept asking if I wanted a drink. NO THANKS.
Would I give him my Number? I DONT THINK MY BF WOULD LIKE THAT
Then he asked why *T* was flirting with the other woman and I said they were old friends and people flirt when they play pool but I trusted him.
Then it was did I want HIS number in case things go south with *T* Um I guess but they are great and if they go south the last thing I am going to want is to be around men
Why cant I say leave me the fuck alone you drunk freak?
He started hitting on the gal *T* was playing pool with and I felt sorry for her, then he came back to me and it was like he forgot I told him I had a man, I had to remind him of it.
Finally he sits one seat away from me with just the corner seat between us when Dougie comes to my rescue. He walks over and puts his hand on the guys knee and moves it out of the way then sashays onto the seat and says HI! And suddenly Dougie is QUEEN FOR A DAY all giggly and holding his drink all limp. And it works like a dream, the guy gets up and moves away.
We laughed as we watched him hit on ever plus size or plump woman in the room, I felt sorry for them and hoped that they at least got a drink out of him.
Finally *T*, Dougie and *T*s friend walked me to my van and I headed home. *T* said he had to work in the morning and was too drunk to come home and I am sad to say I was not all that disappointed, it would have been nice to play but it is nice to blog and sleep as well, sad but true. I mean I would love to meet a guy who drives me to distraction, at least for a little while, but those ones always make me hurt more then not so it is just as well.
Not to mention the fact that since they are fixing the doors on all the garages they are not towing people who dont have parking permits so all the lots are full and I had to park out in hell and walk to my place, thank heaven for the Norco but tomorrow when I go to get my van I am going to be in hell.
Wearing Gavin's Hat

Current mood: giggly

I got up at 8:10 to go and get Jeff for work, Marissa has started working the day shift on Sunday, I had been up til after 3 the night before so I should have come home and gone strait to bed but I decided to stop by Big City Cafe on state street and sat there reading stupid magazines and drinking coffee for an hour and a half.

After talking to my dad and getting a little nap in I went over to my Grandmas house for a Fathers day picnic. As I have mentioned my grandfather has been horribly ill, life and death stuff and this last week he got off of dialysis and we have all realized that we have no idea how long he will be around. He is around 82 now and stubborn as a mule when it comes to taking care of himself so everyone wanted to be sure to spend some time with him.
My uncles Steve and Harley were there with their families and my brother and his GF where there when I got there. I wanted to bring something but I am pretty broke so I used this coupon I had from Fred Meyers for a free pound of Gourmet olives and antipasto, I got olives stuffed with garlic and almonds, Greek olives, pickled peppers and mozzarella balls, I only had to pay $3.59 for the little bit that went over a pound (that stuff is $9 a pound!)
We had fried chicken, potato salad, pasta salad, cake, fried rice and other deli salads so it was a pretty good meal. I didnt bring any leftovers home and now I wish I had. LOL I am a bit hungry after going out. But I wasnt feeling all that good after eating. I still have that stupid thing about half the time where I get sick to my stomach after I eat no matter how much or how little I eat.
I came home and read the rest of one of my silly romance books and relaxed then watched THE 4400 and DEAD ZONE and then I hate to admit it but I watched and totally enjoyed WENDY WU, HOMECOMING WARRIOR on The Disney channel. Yes I love silly ass movies just like I love silly ass comic romances. I got ready for Industria while watching the movie which ended at 10:45 so I made it to the club at 11.

Currently watching: The 4400 - The Complete Second Season Release date: By 23 May, 2006

Current mood: optimistic

I called my dad this morning and left him a message for Fathers day, I took a nap for about 45 minutes and he called and we talked for a while. We talked about how you have to separate the chronic pain (in my case my knees in his case my step mothers declining health) from your everyday life.
People always think it is weird when they ask how I am doing and I say I am fine, my arthritis is acting up though. They say well then you are not fine. But here is the thing, I HURT EVERYDAY. That is not going to go away, I have to decide if it is going to define me and my mood or not.
I sometimes jokingly call myself a cripple when it I get a really bad flair-up and have to use a cane and it drives my mom nuts, she honestly hates its and jumps on my for it. She tells me if I talk like that it will be true. The thing she does not realize is I know I am not truly a cripple, I have seen people in so much worse shape then me and even though my pain is the only pain I can deal with I know it is not the end all and be all of my life.
I am not my pain anymore then I am my mental illness.
Dad was saying how he found himself answering the question of how he was doing by saying She has been having a good (or bad) week his life was defined by it. He still cares about it, it is still one of the most important things he deals with in the world but he realized he had to take care of himself to take care of the problems in his life.
I have realized I have to stay on my meds, stay healthy and most of all stay happy or I might as well give up and stop trying to walk at all. I cant let my pain, I cant let my BPD or my Bi-Polar or anything else rule my life, I have to continue to see the good side of things or I might as well curl up and die.
We are suppose to get together for Sushi this week and I hope we do because I enjoy talking to my dad and dont get a chance to do it enough.