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WED, JUNE 18th, 2003   Sounds: SIGH again I am listening to silence, I let some people in my house and SURPRISE my CD/MP3 player I just bought got stolen, I think I know who did it but can not prove any thing, this has been a hell month for me and electronics Weather: It is 2 am and it is still 75 degrees out and it had gotten up to 95today, nasty hot which is why I have been sleeping during the day so much Feeling: I am really depressed about my Camera breaking and having my CD/MP3 player stolen. I want a new camera and need to sell videos really badly but the econmy sucks right now and sells are down.   Well I have not written for a while and I have been kind of busy and kind of down about my Camera. On the 7th I was downtown hanging out with my friends and I fell off of an 18 inch concrete embankment on to my knees (only today is the last of the bruising gone and the tenderness is still there) I was holding my camera and tried hard to keep it off the ground, but it tapped just enough to screw it up forever, the colors are now too dark no matter what flash you use and it does not focus past 2 feet. I need a new one but they are $200 on line for the one I want. I hate being so broke but after spending $50 on a CD/mp3 player just to have it stolen I am so broke it is scary as in I don't have any gas and like $5 to my name....SIGH and it is only half way through the month.

DOWN WITH LOVE  I went with my Grandma to go see DOWN WITH LOVE at the cheapy theater today. Ohhhhhh man funny film IF you like the old Doris Day / Rock Hudson movies It is a total parody fo those movies and we both laughed our heads off and admired the clothing..... just what I needed.   Another really good site to get movie info it the NEW YORK TIMES MOVIES section they have tons of info there   Please COMMENT

WED, JUNE 04, 2003 Sounds: Gothic mix CD I am making for a swap... Bauhaus, rasputina, Nick Cave, Cruxshadows and more. Having some problems with it, first I wrote the lable for it all over a DVD blank and then recorded it and found that for some reason my one copy of Cry Little sister only records 6 seconds even though I know the entire song is there.... Sigh recording it again and then I will listen through it again. Weather: Windy today but nice. It is 8:20P.M. and Feeling: I actually feel pretty good, a little restless and all but not bad at all, last night I went on a date which was nice and went to see Matrix and to dinner. I would love to go out more often it just doesn't seem to happen....sigh. I try never to let myself get bored, I try to keep myself occupied but sometimes I get restless and want to do something and have no idea what or with who. **************** I have decided that the mid 30's is a great age for women. We are young enough to date younger men and old enough to be "the older woman" We are old enough to date older men and young enough to be the "younger woman" A win no matter how you look at it. I was never really into younger men until recently but they seem to be into me, I get a lot of messages from them as well as E-mails which is great I think it shows more young men are becoming admirers of BBWs or at least open about liking a wide variety of women. My only problem is a lot of them are not looking date, not even casually, they just want to get laid and I am not into that. I expect to be treated with some respect by any guy I get involved with in any way. If he wants to be involved with me then he had better be willing to go out with me in public and hang out, spend time with me and let me get to know him. I figure if I am not worth that much time and effort then there is no point in my being with the guy. Right now I am kind of enjoying going out with different people, I am not saying if the right guy came along I would not be up for a relationship but I am enjoying my freedom a lot I just want to meet decent guys who treat me well. I know I will not get into a serious relationship just because I feel lonely or like I can not find anyone, I have done that before and it lead to heartbreak. My big problem with a lot of older guys is I am not really 34, not inside my head, not in the way I think or act, I listen to a lot of odd music, I work as little as I have to to get by, I like to waste time and have a lot of fun and I am silly a lot of the time, I dress like a lot younger person, hell I wear pigtails a lot and it makes some older guys very uncomfortable. I am also very liberal in my thinking and acting and a Pagan and in Idaho that is not a common thing to find in guys over 40. I am trying to not stress out where men are concerned, admittedly it can be a bit hard when it feels like every guy you have anything to do with is out to play you but I am trying to keep faith that there are decent men out there who I have stuff in common with.

I went and saw the Matrix Reload last night   My only complaint with it was that they said it would be a stand alone movie, that if you had not seen the first one you would not have any problems with this one. Not true, if you have not seen the first one rent it, my friend had not seen it and i had to explain a lot of it to him, it is simply too deep a movie a movie not to see all of it and understand it. I love cyber punk stuff so I really liked the movie but I have to wonder, How do the people of Zion plan to take care of all the people they free from the matrix? They barely care for themselvess. Oh well I am too practical sometimes. When the Video AniMatrix comes out I want to get that.

WED, MAY 28, 2003 Sounds: MY NEW AIR-CONDITIONER!!!!!! nice and quite actually. I am going to put some tunes on cause for the first time in for ever I actually feel like listening to music since my house is cooling down. I have put on "female Focus" on SPINNER net radio which is a really cool free net radio service with more then 175 stations. You really do need DSL. Female focus has had on just while I am working, No Doubt, Janis Joplin, Dar Williams, TLC and a wide variety of other women which is why I like it, the variety Weather: it is 83* out right now at 10PM so that gives you an idea why I have been having such a problem with the heat, it got up to 93* and I know by late July 93* will seem pretty good when we have 5 or 6 days of over 100* but for now it makes me feel sick and I am soooo happy to get my A/C unit. Feeling: Today was a little hard physically, it was hot and I did not feel good and bringing the 45Lbs unit in the house played hell on my weak wrist BUT now that the unit is in I feel sooooo much better, part of it is just knowing I have it and part of it is the fact that it really is cooling my place. I LOVE AIR CONDITION and I HAVE THE BEST FAMILY As you know if you read the stuff above I got a new A/C unit today since the heat has been making me physically ill. My Dad and Step Mom Sally Jo are really great, I mentioned to her that I was having trouble to with the heat and she could not believe I had not gotten A/C last year so she said we would have to go buy one. I live in a little apt. so there are only just so many types of A/C units I can have and certain strengths that will not blow the power of the old place I live (scary thought) so we knew I would have to get a small new one and not one of the big ones they use at their business. I needed one that would cool my front room and the bedroom off of it and still fit in my not so big front room window (I actually have a huge window in this room but only a small one opens) Today was a busy day, I got up VERY early (my sleep schedule is so messed up and I work from home so I just sleep when I can) anyway I was awake and called Mom who had a day off today and we went to breakfast at Chef's Hut ((I mentioned this place in detail on SAT JAN 18 2003) I had 2 1/2 HUGE pieces of some of the best French toast I have ever had and a good sized slice of ham and Mom had a "small" omelette and if it had less then 3 eggs I would be shocked and that came with hash browns and toast and we both had coffee and it all came to $11.19 (I LOVE that place) After I dropped mom off I came home and waited for Dad to be able to leave work and then met him at Wal-Mart and we got my A/C unit and visited for a bit (I had gone to their house the night before to see pics of my step-sisters baby girl) and then I had an appointment to get too. I drove the car up on the lawn to unload the A/C Unit and STILL I hurt my damn wrist.... bad wrists and ankles run in my Dads family he is walking on a sore ankle right now. I read the instructions for the installation and called my mom and she said when I my step dad John got off work they would be here.....SIGH that was like 8pm till he gets off work (poor guy works outside in this heat) I am really glad he came over, the unit is not so hard to put in it is just ungainly and my damn window comes all the way out and has to be nailed in place after the A/C unit is in so it takes at least two people to do it, one to hold it and one to nail. I talk to so many people on line who have Horrible relationships with their family or part of their family, I am so lucky to have such nice parents and step parents (John and I got along like water and a tanker oil spill when I was a teen but I think we have both grown up...LOL) I know my electric bill will go up, BUT I do even-pay for it as well as gas so I can budget it every month so it is the same in the winter as the summer and I tell you it is worth it. I decided a couple of years ago that while I will not be wasteful I will not suffer as I have done in the past, freezing and this year baking. I deserve a reasonable bit of comfort and if it means I can not go out and have coffee as often so be it. This really simple inexpensive unit has a timer on it that you can set to turn on or off by the hour (so many clicks equal so many hours) and that will help cause I can set it to turn off early in the morning when it is cool and turn on around 4PM if I am gone. If you have not gone without an A/C unit or you don't suffer the heat like some people do you just don't understand how happy I am, I hate feeling like a dishrag everyday, worn out and wasted.

TUE, MAY 27, 2003   Sounds: same as Sunday No music today just dont feel like it I just have to be in a good mood and fell good to really get into Music ... the sound of the fan blowing and the cars driving by also who knew two little birds doing a mating dance outside your window could be so loud when you are sleeping...LOL I thought an army of sparrows had decended and it was these two two little ones getting all frisky Weather: it is 88* out right now, I am so not made for heat, my step mom and my dad are going to see about getting me an A/C unit since the heat makes me tired and cranky Feeling: I feel a bit better physically but this heat is crappy for me, it makes me cranky and sleepy and makes my skin itch.... PLUS I dont think you are suppose to eat that many gummie bears in 2 days ((so why the hell do they sell them in bulk for $1.28 a pound))   OK today's blog is my Pet Peeve Blog That is where I get to do what a blog is really for and express myself. And YES some people will think I am a bitch and some who read this will recognize their own behavior and maybe cut it the hell out. BEFORE I GO FARTHER... let me say that I have met some wonderful men (and women) on line, men who are respectful, who do not hound and who yes I believe like BBWs......That stated I do have have to say this about the rest of them........... ........................... I have started to go into chat as I mentioned and it is nice enough, then I decided to go into the BBW rooms at yahoo, a place I said I would never go again after being swamped with so many PMs (private messages) I would crash my computer and where men would get really mad if I did not answer their really personal questions. So I finally found how to set my privacy settings so no PMs and had a really good time in there. Then someone said "You know Yahoo has rooms for each state you should check out the Idaho room" and so away I went. Well other then the crashing my computer with 50 PMs (more like 20 at a time now) not really that much has changed. I go in with the screen name that says I am a Big Woman and I have actually only faced one bitter old screw of a woman in open chat who attacked me about my size, I blew her off, and I have only gotten a few guys in PMs who do the same (usually after I wont show my tits). No the problem is the people who swear they like Big Women and I tell you if there are that many here then why are so many BBWs alone? Well it could do with the fact that most of these guys are not actually into BBWs as a whole, no they are in to one not so little part... in this case my tits. What makes me think this? Could it be the fact that 90% of all the PMs I get in Some rooms from people who are not good friends involve my tits? Or the fact that those comments are often the sum total of the message? "Show us your tits" Or the fact that even when a lot of guys spend a bit of time talking to me they all come around to "show me your tits" and even after I say that that is something I save for guys I date they will continue to hassle me about it, returning to it like a dog to a bone. Or the fact that about half of those same guys stop talking to e the moment I make it clear I will not show ((OR they beg and beg and try to guilt me into it till I put them on ignore and they usually do this 3 or 4 words at a time in each line... little do they realize I have the sounds off on messenger so it does not effect me...LOL)) And then there are the personal questions, I always wonder why people will ask someone they have been talking to less then an hour even questions about their sex life, what their favorite position is, if they like to go down or be eaten.....DAMN people. I ask them if they saw a woman on the beach with the same cleavage as mine would they say these things to her face on first meeting her, well don't they think I deserve the same respect? Or at the very least don't they care that they come off looking like an ass? When I make it clear to guys locally that I am not showing my tits, I am not coming over to their house (or as is sooooo much more often the request letting them come over to my place) for a roll in the hay, that I am looking for a guy who wants to go out, some of them will honestly say "Ok I will take you out to dinner then you can show me your tits and we can play." It totally goes over their heads. I wear tank tops all the time and yeah I have a lot of cleavage, and I should be able to have my cam for the few guys out there who are nice and who do show respect to enjoy without being insulted and treated like trash. All I really want is to meet a nice guy locally who would actually like to get to know me before hitting the hay, and every time I think I have I am proven wrong. The funny thing is when I say I want a guy to take me out I am not talking some big fancy dinner or anything, hell a cheapy movie and something simple at IHOP would make me happy as long as we could talk and get to know each other, and yeah it would be kind of nice if he could pay the first time but necessary. I have to believe there is a guy out there with something to talk about who likes BBWs and is not afraid to be seen in public with them and is not just looking to get laid. It is enough to make a girl give up on men and buy a big teddy bear and a subscription to the Adam&Eve Catalog

REAL HONEST PMs Yes I have altered the names ejec*&&o_o*&y_$#4: you show naked tits now plzz yes you show sex boise_bbw: no no ejec*&&o_o*&y_$#4: yes ejec*&&o_o*&y_$#4: nude sex boise_bbw: bye (Put on ignore) ex%^$#@e_s%i: looking for a bbw for some fun ex%^$#@e_s%i: you like younger men? boise_bbw: Yeah ex%^$#@e_s%i: can i see your breasts on cam boise_bbw: no boise_bbw: I dont show on cam for strangers ex%^$#@e_s%i: ok ex%^$#@e_s%i: do you meet people from here to fuck? boise_bbw: not to fuck no boise_bbw: I need a guy who will actually treat me with a bit of respect and not try to just screw me in secret, one who is not ashamed of being with a BBW in public (BIG surprise that was the last I heard from him...LOL)   boise_bbw: hi alwa^%$#%rly: what ya doin sexy boise_bbw: nothing much alwa^%$#%rly: how cum boise_bbw: late night..LOL alwa^%$#%rly: you been horny all night,,lol boise_bbw: No I am working on my page alwa^%$#%rly: wanna watch me stroke my thick cock and cum for you boise_bbw: No not really (and of course he had nothing else to say :) )   trinaxxl (11:56:48 PM): what are you up too tonight? anything interesting bb^^%$dnow (11:56:56 PM): not a thing bb^^%$dnow (11:57:10 PM): was trying to talk a bbw into coming over. trinaxxl (11:57:10 PM): you usually up this late? trinaxxl (12:02:16 AM): what do you do for fun? bb^^%$dnow (12:02:32 AM): mainly masturbate and have sex. bb^^%$dnow (12:02:33 AM): lol trinaxxl (12:03:18 AM): exciting trinaxxl (12:03:27 AM): do you tell all the women you meet that? trinaxxl (12:03:56 AM): maybe if you fibbed and inplyed you did something else they might meet you??????? trinaxxl (12:16:42 AM): ahhhh so you did not like that suggestion? ((Why am I not surprised I never heard another word?))   idm&^^%$y: can u do me a favour trinaxxl: am I going to be insulted by this? idm&^^%$y: no trinaxxl: ok what? idm&^^%$y: stand up trinaxxl: OK idmdanny: take off the bra trinaxxl: No trinaxxl: I save that for people I am intimate with iidm&^^%$y: plsss trinaxxl: no dont ask again idm&^^%$y: ok idm&^^%$y:only the nipples idm&^^%$y: ?? trinaxxl: BYE idm&^^%$y: remove it idm&^^%$y: plssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss trinaxxl: remove what? idm&^^%$y: ur dress ((instant ignore))   Am I the only person who finds PLS or PLZ annoying? PLEASE is a simple word it is not hard to type when you use plzz or whatever you look like a little kid. And how hard is it to type You and are in stead of U and R or ur? other one I think do not speed you up so much as they make you look dumb is OIC. Also using all capitals makes wonder what a guy is compensating for...LOL OK thanks everyone for letting me get that out of my system.

SUN, MAY 25, 2003  Sounds: No music today just dont feel like it ... the sound of the fan blowing and the cars driving by Weather: The last few days have hot as hell, we went from the low 70s perfect for May to 96degrees yesterday and had a big blow up and next to no rain...pout. Today it got to 82 which is better I am just soooooo not read for the heat of summer. Feeling: I hurt soooo bad today, i am alergic to dairy but it is tricky some days I can get away with butter on my potatoes and cream in my coffee, like half a cup and never feel a twinge. And then you have a day like today, the only dairy I have eaten in two days is about a table spoon of butter on my mashed potatoes (I do not have a problem with it cooked in foods like potatoes or cakes or whatever but can not eat ice cream, yougurts, cheeses of any type, milk as milk) anyway I ate that at 1 pm and at 1 am I woke up in horrible pain and it is 9 pm the next day and I still hurt really bad with stomach and back pain (it effects my hernia) so today was kind of lousy   Buckaroo Bonzai started my "crushes on Jeff Goldblum and Peter Weller I wrote this list for the Dimensions web broad when people were talking about who they had "crushes" on I realized something, I have a serious thing for men who are geeks (especially if I sence that under that sweet geekiness lays a heart of kink, a real sexual pioneer) or who are or who play disturbed, strange, wild people.   1) Wolverine... (YES I know he is fictional, I have had a thing for him since I was 9, I read my first x-men and went over night from liking Shawn Cassidy --yeah I am old--- to a short vicious killer over night and never looked back, and I hated it when they started to tame him down... I like Hugh Jackman, but ONLY as wolverine, man he grated in that thing with meg ryan, but then everything with Meg Ryan grates me raw. 2) Chris Issak... YUMMY YUMMY YUM. I love his show, his music and have since before heart shaped world ....if you ever listen to a good interview with him you realize the guy he plays on his show is himself, he is funny as hell and smart, two things that will get me every time. 3) Jeff Goldblum... those eyes, those lips, that height, that voice, I want to climb him. When he lounged back in Jarassic park I got all squirmy, I watched the whole damn movie for him and I hate dino movies. 4) Christopher Walken... He always plays an insane man... how sexy 5) Peter Weller... So in control, such a silent type, I want to tie him up and ... and... ummmmmmmmm 6) Kurt Russle in Big Trouble in Little China... I want him, I want his boots, I want to... Ummm hell if you don't get it just watch the damn moive. 7) Bruce Willis... young Bruce, older Bruce, does not matter, he is FINE. And he has a great ass, just watch 12 monkeys. 8) Silent Bob (Kevin Smith) HUMMMMMMM I just have a thing for him I love guys who look like him and I adore Kevin Smith's creativity and talent and both of those are sexy as hell. 9) Rufus Sewell (Dark City and Cold Comfort Farm) British accent, sexy brown eyes, haunting face.... sigh. 10) James Marsters (Spike) British accent, sexy blue eyes, and the sence that he is a real hard core kinkster.... hey a girl can dream ( I would not touch "Angel" David Boreanaz, I just don't get what is suppose to be so sexy about him, hell Xander (Nicholas Brendon) is sexier then him to me cause he has that total innocent thing going on and I love that... when I see a guy like that blush I want to see how far down the blush goes. There is not much sexier then a really innocent looking guy who you know is really a kinkster. 11) Vin Diesel(yeah it ia cliche these days, anyway I perfered him a ton more in Pitch Black then anything else).. It is the voice, the attitude, another actor I have liked much longer who is a better actor but not as buff (which does not matter to me) who has the same voice quality and attitude is Miguel Ferrer from Crossing Jordan on NBC....yummy The only roll I really liked George Clooney in was Dawn to Dusk, Johny Depp when he is at his weirdest, the only things I have been able to stand Kevin Kostner in was 3000 Miles to Graceland (get your bubblegum) I have a thing for bad boys or sweet men you just know are naughty...LOL Here are some guys along with David Boreanaz I just do not get why everyone are hot for them, I just don't see it Matt Damon, Tom Cruise, Keanu Reeves, Eminem, Antonio Banderas, Any Baldwin brother, Any guy on Friends, Huge Grant, Leonardo DiCaprio.... oh man the list goes on

THUR, MAY 15, 2003 Sounds: Chris Issak ((YUMMMMMMMMY)) and singing along.   Weather: It is beautiful out, about 70 and sunny and I have all the windows and the door open, which is funny cause I am sitting behind the door and not dressed so I got a bit of a scare when the mail man walked up...LOL thankfully you can not see the desk chair from the door with it open.   Feeling: Not bad, I am in a great mood, I went on a date this week and spent time with a really great guy... lol yeah a local who knew they existed. Shoulder hurts a bit but I am getting use to it. ****************   Last night I went with my mom and grandmother and step dad to see writer and columnist MOLLY IVINS at the Egyptian theater in Boise. We went to coffee at an outdoor cafe and relaxed until the 7:30 speech (molly had given a dinner speech for the ACLU of Idaho and they sold so many tickets to the show they decided to do another speech at 9:30) Molly is one of my favorite writers, a civil libritarian she has a biting wit and a great grasp of the foolishness of government. I read her column on line which saves me from having to read the spell binding crap that most papers are choking on these.... local feel good stuff to the point of pablum and national news written by the white house itself more or less. The press is more and more owned by a few big businesses who care only for the numbers and the income, the news gets smaller (and less confrontational) while the ads get bigger (and more insulting to anyone with a brain) Thankfully we have a weekly liberal free paper in Boise and I can find my news on line from the few papers in the country who still perter real news over strained peas. I can also read just the news I need and not be responsible for little and trash of paper that is wasted way too often in this country. A great place to get MOLLY IVINS column on line is the Fort Worth Star-Telegram.   Inside the historic Egyptian theater in Boise, pictured from the balcony. This amazing 1020's theater is in the center of downtown and in an act to save it as a working theater (it is a historical building and can not be taken down but it would be heartbreaking to see it empty) the owners fixed the seating to stadium seating and chairs with armrests that go up. This investment while removing about 50 seats from the place now allows them to put on shows other then movies (which they still do) They have musical performances and speeches on a regular basis.

Here is list of some of the Molly Ivins books on my amazon wish list ( trina msxxl) Shrub : The Short but Happy Political Life of George W. Bush   You Got to Dance With Them What Brung You: Politics in the Clinton Years   Molly Ivins Can't Say That, Can She?   Nothin' but Good Times Ahead   Here is her upcoming book in sept Bushwhacked: Life in George W. Bush's America   Books she has co-written Adventures of a No Name Actor Pipe Dreams: Greed, Ego, and the Death of Enron   Please COMMENT

MON, MAY 13, 2003 Sounds: Alien Sex Fiend, other hard goth music   Weather: Really nice day today, warm enough but it is suppose to get into the 70s this week which is good I want to air the house out really good, living with kittens and all it gets a bit close in here. Just a few clouds to break things up.   Feeling: Working on line too much, neck and shoulder pain a bit and I worry about my elbows and wrists but mood wise I am feeling great. I need to eat more regular, I have sort of just been grabbing a bite when I think about it and letting too much time go by so my blood levels probably suck rocks. ****************   I have been chatting in the Graveyard (yahoo) way too much and not getting ANYTHING done, some rooms are way too addictive. It is a goth room and I usually don't go into non BBW rooms to chat but I am getting burned out on getting guys asking me I want to gain weight. UMMM No....LOL I have actually been really pleasantly surprised how good a response I have gotten in that room, both from people who are just cool and the guys who flirt. I have met a surprising number of BBW Admirers of all types who are not just looking to hang in a BBW room and hook up. I guess when you insulate yourself in your own little enclave (i.e. BBW sites and rooms) you can get kind of convinced that the only people who will treat you well are BBWs and admirers. Of course those enclaves are safe, they make you feel great BUT they can also beguile you in to forgetting that some people are going to hate you just for how you look. The one thing you run into in non BBW rooms is even when people are great to YOU personally you have to realize that they still use fat and ugly as if they are the same word (Though most will say "Of course I don't mean you, you are special") and you end up hearing girls who are 150 pounds saying how they are SOOOO fat.   Also I realized last night that if someone is upset they will attack you with the easiest insult they can find and of course that is your size. This actually happened last night, a guy I really liked as a person got upset and attacked everyone, and of course when I was trying to be nice to him he went after the weight card. What he said no longer hurts me like it would have even 5 years ago, it was the fact that he did say it, that he went after the easy hateful shots, that hurts, since I believe that deep inside he believes every hateful thing he said about my body and self in relation to it. I some times have to remind myself that people can just be polite and still despise you just because you are big. Maybe it is a good thing that happened, I guess I needed to remember that there will always be people like that and I can not let myself care what they think or it will tear me up inside. Also I remind myself it is just the net, I will never meet that person, they really do not matter, it is the people who treat you right who matter. Still it has been over all a really good experience chatting there. I even met one other BBW who says that since knowing me she is feeling more confident and secure with who she is and it is always nice to be told you are beautiful by people who are not just talking about the size of your hips. I know that is not a fair statement about all FAs but sometimes it feels like they only like you for your size... but then I could be delusional and the only reason guys on Yahoo like looking at me is my tits....LOL Oh well can't win them all

I have been working on my http://www.amazon.com wish list a lot lately adding books and things I would like to have. my wish list name is trina msxxl in case you ever want to take a peek at the kind of stuff I like... I add more all the time and hey if you want to send me something go for it. LOL. I won't say no.   Some of the things I want are: Neil Gaiman's Sandman (and his Magic and Death) Series of graphic novels.. I have read them all but I would love to own them, paperback or hardback. ******** Neil Gaiman's American Gods (which I need to finish reading   ****   I love CyberPunk books, I started reading William Gibson about 12 years ago and would like a collection of his, Neal Stephenson's and Bruce Sterling's books as well as others in the genre   ******** I also collect fun and weird postcards or art postcards and there are books of these I would love to have ******* Michael Moore's books and videos I really love his stuff and can't wait to see Bowling for Columbine   Please COMMENT