The Basics

Name: My name is T'Rina which is pronounced Tah Reina.
But on line I am best known as MSXXL on line or Auntie T'Rina in the Boise Goth Community

Vital stats: age, height, weight, size,:

I am 36 (12-7-68)
5'8 , 430 or so pounds, I measure about 64-58-80 with a 40 inch thigh
so I wear anything from a 28 to a 34. and NO I am NOT trying to Gain

Location: Boise Idaho (for now)

Occupation: Artist / Web Goddess / BBW Model (both photo and art), slacker

Marital-romantic situation: Single

The Words that best describe me: Eclectic, joyful, well rounded (in more then one way) Well read loving, educated, artistic, interesting, creative, giving, silly, fun, flamboyant, gargarious.

Do you collect anything or have a hobby:

My Hobbies include doing my personal web page and groups. I also do all kinds of art and think of new ways to decorate my place. I also collect Old Time Radio shows, I love detective shows the best.

I design and revamp clothing for myself and others and love to goth things up ((take boring things and make them gothic.))
I collect any little odd thing that catches my eyes, I love unusual purses and jewelry, odd boxes, Gods and Goddess' and friends.

My favorite Things...

Movies:
I love action flicks and serious Sci-fi. Also good shoot-em-ups as well. I also enjoy odd movies like 12 Monkey, Pulp Fiction (pretty much any Tarentino), Dark City, Matrix and much more. Also comedy's and the occasional chick flicks and wonderful old movies. As far as TV goes i really can't stand sit-coms but I like smart dramas like the CSI and Law and Order shows as well as Veronica Mars.

Books:
I am a mystery Junky. I Love them. I also enjoy Sc-fi and Fantasy stuff. I really enjoy off-beat stuff like Elmore Leonard, Kinky Friedman and Carl Hiaakin as well as the occasional romantic comedy. I also like Henry Miller and Dorothy Parker.

Music:
I have very eclectic tastes. I enjoy everything from goth to graver to jazz and blues, classical and rock. I adore Chris Issak, Tori Amos, The Doors, Bauhaus, Cruxshadow, Sisters of Mercy, and much much more, too many to count and growing daily ...

Foods:
Ethnic!!! I love spicy food such as Thia, real Chinese, Cajun, Sushi, Ethiopian, Greek/Mediterranean, Mexican, Indian etc...
I also enjoy 'comfort food' ((mash potatoes, Southern fried chicken, Sweet potatoes and ham)) all the stuff you want when you are feeling down.

Sound:
I thrill to the sound of serious thunder...the screaming, shake the house kind that happens in late summer as well as the amazing silence afterwards.

Smell:
This is powerful with me cause I am very sensitive to smell, I love Jasmine, vanilla, ylang ylang, and most of all a tree that grows here and only has a smell for a few weeks, called a Mimosa, it is an almost indescribable smell.
Also the smell of rain after it has been hot and dry for weeks.

By the same token I really hate bad or unpleasant smells.

A few Questions.......

What would you do if the person you were involved with wanted
you to seriously change your body (lose, gain, ect.):

I have met men who told me I would be beautiful if I lost weight ((and even some who said I would be beautiful if I gained 100Lbs.)) I pointed out that this is who I am and I have no intentions of changing for anyone other then myself. I am a big woman, I like the size I am and am not interested in changing unless it is for me and my health.
When a man makes comments like :Have you ever thought of gaining __# of pounds?" I start to wonder if I am what they want or if I am just a 'starter kit' for their fantasy. If he was insistent I would say good bye.

I also run into men who say they have no interest in having me be any bigger then spend hours talking to me about food and my eating habits, it is a mixed message and tends to make me doubt them.

What do you look for in a partner:
Attentive: I like getting lots of contact, someone who even when he can not see me will check in with me and say hi and see how I am doing, I don't need to be the center of his world all the time but I want to know I am not an after thought.

Intelligence: I need someone I can talk to about a lot of different things , someone who does not act shocked if I use a "big' word, but who on the same line does not make me feel stupid if I ask them questions about things. I learn by asking questions and since I find intelligence attractive I like to cuddle up with a guy and have him tell me about his special interests be it computers, history or whatever.

Humor: (Laughter is sexy) I have a kind of wicked and bent sense of humor and I admire that in a man as long as it is not cruel or hateful.

Honesty: Nothing will blow it quicker with me then lies and exaggerations.

Confidence: I want to know a guy is with me because he thinks I am great not because he thinks I am all he can get, I like confidence without too much ego. If I tell someone they are attractive to me I don't want them telling me I am crazy

Tolerance: (of me and others,) it drives me nuts when a person is always judging others. I am not perfect and I don't expect others to be, I am friends with an amazingly wide group of people and I expect the man in my life to accept and treat them well the same as I would expect them to treat him.

Romantic: Someone who will take a little time to tell me I look great, who can accept compliments from me and who likes to do little things on the spur of the moment whether it is leave me a little note or bring me a flower and who doesn't mind if I do the same.

I am really attracted to guys who are into Goth stuff but they don't have to be as long as they accept that I am and my friends are. I want a guy who will feel comfortable around my friends and who can go to a goth club without bitching about the music. I don't mind if a guy drinks somewhat but I can't stand being around drunks or people who have to drink to have fun.

What is sexy to you:

Physically... I have found people attractive with all body types, it was the person I liked but when I am just walking down the street and some guy catches my eye I admit there are things I find sexy.
I am 5'8 and I do like men who are tall but if I like the man himself I am comfortable as long as he is at least a little taller then me.
There is just something great about putting your head on someone's shoulder. I am attracted to medium sized guys, though I have found bigger and smaller guys cute. Mostly it is an attitude, being confident without being vain and a love for life. I am turned on by men who have no problem showing their sensual side, and if they obviously like me that always helps.

How did you come to realize you were a BBW instead of just
a Big woman:

Well I have been big most of my life and it was hell I went through some hard core harassment growing up and I had a bad attitude about my body.

When I got into my late-mid 20's I started to read some really good books on self esteem and that made me think that I had a right to be happy. Then I read The Beauty Myth by Naomi Wolfe that showed how Business makes its money off of us hating ourselves and that made me mad. Then I found Radiance and Dimensions which lead me to the net. I started to build a page and the response I got was amazing. By the time I met my first real FA I had already started to build my confidence up and being around people who liked what I look like helped.

What would your perfect date be:

I Like surprises.

I would love to have the guy plan everything in advance since I often seem to be the one who ends up figuring out where to go, which is OK but it would be nice to be surprised and have everything organized before we leave the house.

My idea of a great date would be to have the guy show up on time with a bunch of mixed flowers and have him take me to dinner somewhere really nice but not too expensive, just really good food. Also in a place we know I will be comfortable.
After an amazing meal and fabulous conversation we would go somewhere and sit and listen to music and talk more and enjoy the music and laugh about silly things and talk about important things and maybe share desert. Afterwards we could go for a drive and go look at the stars and just relax then a nice long good night kiss, cause any guy worth having will realize he is going to have to not only woo me but be pretty damn serious to get more cause I am definitely worth it.

I also just enjoy spending time with a guy I like. Special dates are great and they are a wonderful way to show you are serious but I am also happy going to the club with a guy, going to coffee and talking or if we know each other really well watching movies or video can be fun as well.
The main thing is he is happy to be with me in public.